Rest In Peace Smiley Sanga

On the evening of the 18th January 2019 my lovely little lizard passed away. Sanga had been a part of our family for around 15 years so to have been without with for exactly a week now feels so strange. Of course I am absolutly broken without my best friend but right now I want to focus on the happiness he bought us in his lifetime, not the ache I feel right now.

Sanga you were a ray of sunshine and one of the biggest sources of comforts in my life for so long. Now I find comfort in the memories we shared. I wrote a poem about you late last year and later turned it into a song that I sang to you in your last month or so almost every single night. The first time I played the song for you was really special to me and I’m so glad that Iestyn recorded it. In your memory I’ve taken that video and put it all the clips I had of us on my phone with it.

The clips are from over the last 5 years (that’s as far as my icloud goes back) and the video of me singing is from December 2018. I’m finding it hard to know the right thing to say as there are no words perfect enough. I can’t put together a pargraph meaningful enough to sum up how I feel and how much I miss you as proccessing that you’re gone has turned my brain to mush. I guess I’ll let the video speak for me

*THIS POST IS AN EXACT COPY AND WAS ORIGINALLY POSTED ON BLOG ESPEARUPDATES.COM ON JANUARY 25th 2019*