Today I was feeling incredibly low, and very hopeless. After dinner mum asked me if I wanted to get out, to just drive down to the seafront and watch the waves from the car. My first reaction was to say no, but then I thought 'I can't feel any worse.. why not.' Now here I am 3 hours later, feeling smilier than I have in a while. I'm obviously not saying this is a cure, but if you suffer like me then you'll know every (healthy) fix is worth a shot, even if only temporary. I also know to some this may sound incredibly obvious, but for others this might be the motivation they need to get out tonight, tomorrow, or next week! Trust me I know sometimes it's a very hard thing to do.
First I got dressed in a outfit I feel confident in as sometimes it's nice to feel pretty on the outside when I don't feel pretty on the inside. I also want this pictures to remind you that mental health doesn't always look like teary eyes or a tired body, sometimes it hides behinds a happy smile and a confident outfit.
We popped out for a drive to the beach. It was raining so we stayed in the car for a while, before getting out and walking around. It was empty so I started shouting my head off, to get everything off my chest, and I ended up laughing.
Afterwards we all drove to costa for a hot chocolate, and in that moment I felt more content and safe than I have in a long time. Even if in a few minutes my depressed mindset takes centre stage in my mind again, I made a happy memory today and reminded myself that it's not all as bad as it seems in my head.
Even if you don't feel like it, or like me, if it feels like the last thing you want to do... just do it. You can't get out of your head but you can get out of the house. Today was so needed and I'm so grateful, it's been a tough year and a horrible few weeks especially. If you are suffering with depression please don't take what I've said lightly just because it sounds silly, the whole reason why I've written this post is because I've realised the importance of the simplest of things like a change of scene. I hope when I'm next deep in the lows, I'll see this post and maybe take my own advice.
E x
*THIS POST IS AN EXACT COPY AND WAS ORIGINALLY POSTED ON BLOG ESPEARUPDATES.COM ON SEPTEMBER 14th 2018*
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