I have a new original song up on my youtube! I wrote this song a few months ago after someone decided they couldn't forgive me for the smallest misunderstanding. I was so completely confused by it all as literally nothing had happened to excuse their reaction but then it twigged: They're just simply not supposed to be in my life. They'll find any excuse to run away from being in a relationship or even friends with me, whether they realise it or not. You're not supposed to force things like that, so there's no point mourning something that didn't wanna stick around. I've got a pretty great life as it is! It's not my problem im a weak spot for someone, just let them be and know it's all on them. One of the main reasons why I love this song and being a songwriter in general is that now I can tell my side of the story, in a creative and honest way, not a hateful one like they did at the time. If you wanna make something every ones business before even talking to me about it, go ahead. To anyone who wants to hear what I have to say, my thoughts are in my song! It's my business (and said persons) so it's not an exposé, but this is what went through my head in that moment of realisation.
Lyrics
You're so quick to believe the worst in me
You're so quick to lash out with your mean words for all to see
And I'm so quick to take it personally
When it's never been a reflection on me..
I hit a weak spot in your heart
I have done from the start
It took me falling out of love to finally see
I was wrong, all along
It was you who was weak while I was strong
I put myself on the line
Time after time
But you ran and ran
Now I understand
My life is somewhere you're not supposed to be
I'm not your fate, you're not my destiny
You're so quick to cut me out so you can breathe
You're so quick to find any excuse to run away from loving me
And I'm so quick to try and beg you not to leave
'Cause it's routine but now I see it's not meant to be
You won't let me in your heart
You haven't from the start
But now I don't mind cause it's not where I want to be
I was wrong, all along
It was you who was weak while I was strong
I put myself on the line
Time after time
But you ran and ran
Now I understand
My life is somewhere you're not supposed to be
I'm not your fate, you're not my destiny
My right love was right under my nose
But I got so caught up in chasing you
But my love knew where to go
He joined the race and chased me too
And when I started to slow
He caught up to me
Fell in love with me
And I lost sight of you
Just like my heart was begging me too
I was wrong, all along
It was you who was weak while I was strong
I put myself on the line
Time after time
But you ran and ran
Now I understand
My life is somewhere you're not supposed to be
I'm not your fate, you're not my destiny
My right love was right under my nose
But I got so caught up in chasing you
But my love knew where to go
He joined the race and chased me too..
The Video
Me and Iestyn have spent the last few weeks (I got my hair cut in between so excuse the non consistent hair styles) going on nice walks and taking his camera to film short bits and bobs and it's all came together so nicely! I'm really proud of the natural vibes and sunny weather. It's like a bit of spring 2018 captured perfectly for me in a little video and I'm obsessed. It took me about 3 hours to edit together and I think I did okay, not my best editing but good for my first time editing a video to music like this!
Watch the full song and video here:
Outtakes:
When looking through my left over clips after I was gutted at how little I could use and we've had such a nice few weeks filming this so I made this little behind the scenes/outtakes as a little vlog of the week we've had as I want to remember the fun memories made whilst making this with my best mate eveeer!!
E x
*THIS POST IS AN EDITED COPY AND WAS ORIGINALLY POSTED ON BLOG ESPEARUPDATES.COM ON MAY 13th 2018*
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